Md Asyraf Z.
Eighteen.
16 Dec 91.
SP ; Computer Engineering.
Very much in love with
Norfadillah A.
Since 17 March 2008.
CONTACTS:
MSN/Facebook/Friendster:
nortrom@hotmail.com
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Its amazing how when it comes to my friends,they seem to be enjoying their holidays hard.
Its amazing how their parents make them study, work hard, but let them enjoy their life like they want to.Its amazing how when it comes to their parents, overnighting somewhere with their buddies isnt much of a big deal.Just that they have to take care of themselves.Its amazing when it comes to my friends,skating overnight isnt a big deal with their parents.So long as they dont get in trouble and take care of themselves. Its amzing when it comes to them,thonning at a bbq pit isnt much of a big deal to their parents.They ARE ABLE to enjoy these times with good friends without any hassle.Its amazing my friends get to spend the whole night out on new years till the next morning without their parents making a big fuss out of it.
Its amazing that when it comes to me,my parents have 1million and 1 reasons to prevent me from enjoying my life,thonning with friends,skating overnight,celebrate new year for a whole dawn.IM 19 FRO GODS SAKE.IM A GUY FOR GODS SAKE. Why cant i be like them?
Why cant i enjoy my teenage hood just like them?Why must i be held back?Its never fair for me.Since i was in secondary school I NEVER could do all those things.Everytime my friends ask me out for an overnight session, i have to repeat this sentence everytime to decline, "My parents dont allow me". Till now i still have to say that bullshit phrase over and over again.Im so ashamed to have to say that. Why cant you let me enjoy my night life and freedom? Everytime i raise this topic, you keep reminding me of that incident.Its as if that incident hadnt give me hell already.I think 100 million times before i do something stupid because of that incident.I swear i fucking regret it.Do you know that each time you raise that incident its giving me more hell?Its totally not helping me move on with my life.Whenever my close friends invite me for an overnight fishing or stayover,i have to decline because youll keep on relating to that stupid incident.Its not as if i dont regret it.Deep inside i badly wanna enjoy life like all my buddies do.I want to feel my life.Until when must i be held back from doing all these great things?Until when must i be bounded? Why must you think of 1million and one reasons to not let me go? Why must you still control my life so much that i feel like a primary school kid? WHY?Both of you, WHY?
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